New Years Eve

Not too excited about tonight. Most likely partrying with the same chumps from last time :/. Unless kl comes through but I'm already sure that wont happen. My hometown has never been a huge party one, which means usually only one person has a party for special events like NYE. Anyway I guess I'll put this in pros and cons

Pros-
-Getting my own case
-hs friends will be there
-House is close

Neutral-
-It just snowed this morning
-It might rain tonight

Cons-
-Getting my own case
-Not tight with the party thrower
-There will be douchebags present fo sho

Party Score Prediction: 7.5

I guess I should write about my weekend

Meh. Got back home friday. We had a massive snow blizzard here in the nothern va. But it didnt stop us from partying! I saw a good amount of my hs friends, and randoms. I've got to be honest, this party is for my triplet friends and it's always been sort of a tradition but this year was just kind of wack. The '07 and '09 kids from my highschool are lame for the most part. My class 08 is small and not very into partying. Not to mention it started snowing at 9 so even less people came out. I still had a decent time out but previous years had been better. I also had to limit my consumption because of the nasty roads.

Crunkness: 8/10 - I did pretty well for knowing a drive home early was in order. I felt pretty good when I left, when I actually got home I felt kinda crunk ha.

Fun: 7.5 /10 - I had fun, it was good to see most my friends. Too many people I know, but I wasn't tight with tho. Not to mention drinking games were nearly absent.

Atmosphere: 7.5/10 -Again all people I know, too many I don't care about. I mostly stuck with my friends, thankfully there were enough people I liked to conversation hop.

Extras: 7.5 /10 -The skippy ran out in 30 minutes, beer availability seemed to be questionable (finally a run was made). Seeing old friends is probably the only thing that kept this afloat bitch.

Shenanigans: 5 /10 - Nothing absolutely nothing crazy. I heard people so spent the night had a few, but this party was house cat not a lion. The only thing close was my search for beer in the basement. Apparently too many freeloaders came in and coors had to be hidden, but not from me I get my shit!

Overall: 7 /10 - This party struggled, but came out alive. I might have to party with college friends after this affair tho.





Btw this is too funnyto leave out!

Close

I've been dealing with some drama lately. haven't gotten around to posting. I've had some good weekends. I've been dealing with court and stuff and exams. I don't write about it because it's not something I need to put out there. I'll get to my weekend. Bday/christmas party saturday night. Had fun. I've also stopped drinking like I used to. No more seanjeff split personality crazyness. I'm lucky I still have friends after all the 3am calls haha. Finally some friends said stop get your life together. It really hasn't been that hard to not drink as much though. All I did was stop pregaming, now I can drink all night and not be wasted. Which is crazy how high college will push one's tolerance.

Crunkness: 8/10 - I'm rating this different now. Too crunk (which wasn't possible before) now deducts points. 10/10 is just right, but not too much. That being said I got pretty good saturday. Probably good I stopped when I did but probably could of has a few mo.

Fun: 8.5 /10 - Another good party night with all my friends. the place got crowded sometimes, and some people left early but it was all good. Played some pb and flipcup. talked to people.

Atmosphere: 8.5/10 -Alot of people, almost all my peeps but some left early. Still friendly atmosphere since it was m's bday party so it was mostly the same crowd. Not to mention hotchicks galore.

Extras: 8.5 /10 - I've recently begun playing more drinking games ironically because it helps me drink less, but it makes for meeting people and more fun much easier. Most people were dressed up because it was supposed to be formal-ish.

Shenanigans: 7.5 /10 -Nothing really to speak of. Riding my skateboard back to my place was interesting but fun. In reality it was much more of a conversation party than a people doing backflips shindig if you know what i'm saying

Overall: 8 /10 -Solid, party on wayne & garth

weekdays suck

I dont really feel like updating but whatever I have nothing else going on. I should because I had a good weekend though. Thanks to hurricane ida we had Thursday and friday off from school AND my friday morning court date was canceled. Cash register sound bam. It did make for sloppy party travels but that didnt stop me. I partyied anyway. Thursday night played edward 40 hands sort of, but then stopped after one; it was just inconvienent. Went to some random house and and was soaked from walking in the rain. It was all good though. Thursday night parties are always all good. But then I drunk called a million people and felt like an asshole the next day ha. Friday night, my apt did not have power for most the day but came back at night, no parties chilled with my roomates, watched blues brothers. Saturday night, went crazy at my friends house, was on things I'd rather not speak of. And got really into the movie waterboy and chain smoked hookah. I lost my ganja on my way home tho. Wack.

Crunkness: 9.5 /10
-Friday night I was mad wasted. Saturday i was tripping wasted and smacked, not even on planet earth anymore. Have not gotten this crazy in awhile.

Fun: 8.5 /10
- I had a fun weekend. Just more good times with friends.

Atmosphere: 9/10
-The storm and days off gave the weekend a bonus. Most of the time I was with my friends though. I don't think I met anyone at the thursday party.

Extras: 9 /10
- Again hurricane, 4 day weekend, canceled court date. Hell yea. And M visited from vt. Not too mention seeing all the flooded streets.

Shenigans: 8 /10
-Walking in the rain and tripping, good stuff. All the drunkdials, and losing my gangja not as good. I also finished with 0 dollars in my wallet. this was a wash

Overall: 9 /10
- Good solid stuff. Grandma would be proud

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I love no class this morning

Or how my cellphone doesnt work. Aye. Had a good weekend made me forget that I have court this next friday. Im not worried just gotta get a pd. Anyway Friday night my friends K,R,S,& S had a wig party. Lots of juice and a keg plus lots of crazy wigs ( even tho I kinda copped out ). I got super shwasted, and don't remember how I arrived at my place of residence the next morning. I also had some bruises ha. Saturday my brother came down to visit. It was cool went to the game, and showed him my campus but honestly he's too old to party at 28 ( even though my friends thought he looked around 21). Luckily he was just kinda tired so we ended up watching the bully beat down host miller get his ass beat on nbc. And the heavy weight championship was pretty good too.

Crunkness: 9 /10
- The stuff ran out right as I was approaching madcrunkness ha. But it all caught out eventually. I was goooone

Fun: 8.5 /10
- Fun night, Quarters and bp going all night. Talking about wigs and telling my friends they look better with them than normal is always good for a laugh.

Atmosphere: 9/10
-Great atmosphere, all my friends, and not too many randoms but enough to talk to when bored. Definitely one of the better things about being an upperclassmen; most my friends have houses now.

Extras: 8.5 /10
- Friend from last year m showed up, everyone was excited to see her. Other friend m came and he's always funny. Wigs definitely count as an extra such good convo starters.

Shenigans: 8 /10
- Played alot of bp and quarters, and apparently I was being mad funny as if I remembered ha. Anyway good times. Not sure how I got home but im sure that was a crazy story.

Overall: 9 /10
- just plain fun. Love parties with all my friends. good conversations lots of games & of course wigs.

btw these cups are full of mountain dew CODE RED! & I'm on the right

Charged

Had a good weekend. Things have been a bit on the rough side lately so it was nice to get away. Since it was Halloween i figured an update was in order. I can already say my last Halloween was better but this one was good nonetheless. Yea I just said nonetheless. Anyway Friday night went to J's birthday party, It was fun; good amount of people all friendly. Cops showed up around 12 and busted it. I found a corner and hid until they let us go. No jumping fences this time. Anyway got arrested last weekend because a party got busted and like a dumbass jumped the fence and literally 2 cops were just having a conversation on the other side. They later let everyone go and no one got in trouble FML. I wish i had more pictures from this weekend. My costume was pretty balling. I wasn't anything specific but I had a cape, a ninja mask and my green boxers over my pants. Dressed in black of course. Pregamed at R's for like 2 hours (way too long) but it was straight. Went to this packed party then left for this smaller one. It was tight, 2 kegs and not too many people, but alot of people i knew. I was with all my friends too. What more can you ask for eh? Nothing crazy went down but i heard some wack stories about other places so maybe that was good. I'm sure some pictures might come up later but that was the one thing that sucked; who doesnt bring a camera on Halloween? Anyway

Crunkness: 8.5 /10
-No where near last year but still good. Saturday started off slow but I got to where I needed to be. Liquor then kegs? hell yea.

Fun: 8.5 /10
- who doesnt have fun on Halloween. Costumes, candy and beer. Oh yea. I had fun, wish I could of done more party hopping but I found a good place so why push it.

Atmosphere: 9/10
- Props to this one. Partying with all my friends, and all the people I didnt know were friendly too. Not too mention it wasnt that crowded.

Extras: 8 /10
- People in costumes were tight. Saw some good ones. Went to del veqs at the end of saturday which is always a good way to end a night. Overall though kind of tame besides this stuff.

Shenigans: 7.5 /10
- My boxers over my pants was a good conversation starter ha. But thats about it. Good conversation night but the crazyness could of used an upstart.

Overall: 8.3 /10
-8.3 whaat? Yea thats lame but honestly better than an 8 not good enough for and 8 5. Had fun, I think it'll always have that shadow from last year over it. Not to mention the run of bad luck I've had the last couple weeks. They say once you fall down you need to get up and try again though. Its true for partying too

loss for words

I'm stressed somewhere between depressed and angry I am stressed. This year is not going how I planned. or how I wanted at all. I turned off my cellphone today. I knew if I had it on I'd just continue the same road. I don't care if my friends think I'm ignoring them. My grades are slipping; the one thing I thought I actually have and I feel it walking away from me too. My best friend from last year is gone, my other friends I never see because they live off campus, and for whatever reason I can't let myself fall into the group of people I've been hanging out with lately. The reason why my saturday night sucked was not because it was storming outside and no houses were throwing down. It sucked because I was stuck with two friends who I realized had become my new core friends, and no offense to them I don't want them to become my best friends. I don't want another group of friends. I no saying things was better before is all bullshit but I'm feeling discouraged. I'm not making any new gains and I feel like there is no where I can. I know it takes time for things to get getter; I just gotta be ready. The one thing I can not do is not be ready for when things pick up

No momma the search continues - Busted

poor Balloon boy; as the media has dubbed him.

Anyway don't have much to say about my weekend. It was cold wet and rainy. Friday I hung out with jose. And went to a few houses. It was alright. But saturday I did jackshit. Worst weekend night I've ever had. I feel like it's not fair to rank my weekend because the two day's were so opposite. I have 2 tests and a paper due tomorrow. I'm not angry but I'm frustrated about my current social situation.

Home fo the weekend; but why don't my parents keep the heat above 68

It's freezing in this house. Anyway I came home for columbus day weekend. None of my other friends have a fall break but it's all good. I got to catch up with some old nova friends. I saw kl, b, c, and rr. Anyway it was good to see one of my friends who didnt come back to college this year. PArtied pretty hard. I also discovered the true evil of beerbongs.

Crunkness: 9/10
-Thank God fo DD's ha. Pregamed on a bottle of pomegranate burnettes. Then head to a house with a fridge stocked full of budlight. Only to discover I would not be drinking from the can's but some sort of funnel device that should probably never been invented.

Fun: 9/10
-So much fun, even tho this party was alittle far from my nbhood. I still knew tons of people from before I moved.

Atmosphere: 9/10
-Everyone was hella friendly. I'm surprised now but didnt think about it then. Of course theres always one girl whose way overly friendly and then you find out she has a boyfriend the next day ha.

Extras: 10/10
-Seeing tons of old friends I used to be super tight with was the shit. The free ride home and beer bong was legit too.

Shenigans: 8/10
-I won't lie, it was conversation kinda night. Did some stuff but nothing wild

Overall: 9/10 Great night. Probably couldnt be better for the situation. Give it a few more escapades and it probably would of been a 10/10. It's funny how much harder these kids party than people i was friends with in hs.

No thats ignorant!

Fall break this weekend. I'm happy to reload on some groceries and get another faux. I'm not even sure if anyof my hs friends will be around but ohwell. I'm not sure If this weekends gonna be anygood but ohwell, Atleast I can catch up on some HBO shows. Maybe even check out Curb Your enthusiam. South Park was amazing last night. Anyone whose seen the "Mr Jefferson" episode will love it.

RAWR I was trashed

Oh man don't get me started on this weekend. I'm still alittle tipsy writing this. I need taco bell. I'm missing my hat and k's sunglasses. Any way Friday saw blink 182. We were pregaming in the parking lot, and my friend needed to sell aticket. So he found these dudes and they were like yeah we need a ticket but we need a ride too, and we'll split this 24 pack with you if you do. So we started drinking corona and smirnoff. It was quite niice, not to mention the show was pretty tight too. Travis's stage lifted up in the air and he jammed out for awhile. The only thing that sucked is that they only played for about an hour and 15mins. Saturday night my other friend k had a cocktail party, which quickly turned regular party with the run out of liquer. But everyone had to dress formal (of course ppl blew that off too) but i was looking freshhhh. wish i had some pictures. some might pop up on face book soon. Anyway I was gone. Gone gonnnneeeeeeee. Done. Mad Done. Here we go


Crunkness: 11/10
-Oh man what can I say, Jeff was out that night and I was retarded. good stuff. I don't know if
i'll be chillin with burnetts anytime soon again tho.
Fun: 9/10
-Alot of fun and close friends. Good stuff. Talked to people played some bp all that. The blink 182 concert was good too.
Atmosphere: 8/10
-Very nice, Alot of my good friends, and alot of my regular party goer bud's. Most people were really friendly but i was too trashed to care anyway ha, Although at the end of the night, I peaced to M's (don't know why) And this random bitch was just in bitch mode. Aside from that everything was great.
Extras:8/10
- Saw basicallly everyone i'm tight with. K's house is kinda small, but the fact that I could get shots basically on demand was a big plus for me. The formal theme was nice. Im always down to dress up
Shenigans: 8/10
-Broke L's shot glass, kinda funny. Talked to many people, and kept pouring drinks. Nothing out of the ordinary. Macked on these asian chicks at the blink concert, but then I lost my seat laaamme

Overall: 9/10
- Great weekend. So trashed, All my friends. Don't know what else to say haha

Anyway this is the only pic I've found so far, playing bp.

Pj's the projects ; livin in the pjs

Things going alright this week. It's only wednesday but oh well. This weekend should be fun, my friends having a formal cocktail party. It should be a nice change from the schloppy regular ones I go to. I think I'm getting sick so I need to take care of that before it gets bad, I just avoided a cold like 2 weeks ago. Anyway I've had this song stuck in my head for the last couple days. It's by one hit wonder fountains of wayne but it's not stacys mom

Nice Bounceeee

Too my surprise I had a pretty good weekend. I think it's mostly because I did not expect much which led to surprises. My parents came down and visited me this weekend. It wasn't as bad as I thought, I actually enjoyed the time. it was nice to see them again.. and get food. Friday night my parents came down around 5, we had dinner, and saw the movie up shown by out student council. I had never seen it so it was straight. I also showed them my place since they hadnt seen it. Afterwards I went over to ryan's place. It was chill had some so co, and natty. no parties were going on so it was good to do something. Saturday I woke up, went to breakfast with my folks, ate food, later on we tailgated ate more food then went to the game. Luckily the crowd wasnt talking like sailors. My parents are old fashion, no cursing classy people. So I'm glad it wasnt that bad I only heard bullshit 4 times and no F bombsss.We lost 28 to 31 tho which sucked we would of been 4-0. After wards I hit up myfriends bp tournament. Now i'm not good at bp, but some how me and my friend got 3rd place. And we lost by one cup in the semifinals. House rules were wack we did notget redemption for some stupid technicality. Anyway had a fun night and I wasnt even that gone. This is getting kind a long tho so im just gonna gonna wrap it up like a 70 year old on cialis.

Weekend
Crunkness: 7/10
-As for actual crunkness, I didnt get too bad, but considering I had to stay in my game for the bp tourney I was exactly where I needed to be.
Fun: 9/10
-Exciting rush on saturday night, Getting all the way to the semifinals and losing by one cup. I'd do it again if I could.
Atmosphere: 6/10
-Not bad.. definitely people I didnt know, good amount I did. People werent overly friendly at first but surprisingly once me and my friend starting winning games alot of random people started talking to us.
Extras:8/10
- Definitely didnt expect to do as well as I did which was nice. My friend also found a stray kitten and of course we brought it in from the rain and went crazy smothering it hah. the so co shots on friday night were nice too.
Shenigans: 7/10
-Same old crazy stuff, making bad passes on peoples gf's and things. Nothing too crazy tho

Overall: 8.5/10
- Good, Good solid weekend, especially after a dry spell. As much as I want to give it a higher score, i know I've had even better ones in the past, but im def nothing but happy after this one.

I know im pushing this but this songs trippin me out

This is Sparta

I just watched Yes Man, quite the inspirational movie. Especially since things have been a little boring for me lately. So I'm going to say yes to everything for a week, except for stupidbullshitthings people would try to play. That said, why not? But fo real 7 days This Friday to next Friday, All yes. On a different note my parents are coming to visit this weekend they'll be here tomorrow at 4. Atleast theyre bringing me food. Hopefully they wont be offended by drunk college kids at the football game. I'm not sure how this will affect my partying game this weekend, I was hoping to come back like bam after last week but I'll see what comes. Bp tournament this weekend if I can make it out. I should get to bed though, sleeping might be hard I've been stoned the last three nights before i went to bed. looks like its advil od time, ha just kidding kind of

Now jump up and get crazy

I've been messing around with madtracker lately, its this free program that makes beats. After 7 months I'm finally learning how to structure songsish. One day I'll be a famous rapper or something. I realized I actually do like going to my classes. It gives me something to do, so does homework. I think I bombed my marketing test. It was the damn product Growth Martix. I hate doing bad on the first test in a class. It puts so much pressure on the other tests. On the up my spanish 2 test went great. I have two tests next week, I need to get to work on Oceanography. Oceanography & Marketing are probably going to be my most challenging classes this semester; Communications my throw me off some but hopefully not. Anyway I leave you with me and my dawg ontop of our friends car

Fail. FailFailFail

It figures my Satruday night would suck too. I feel like a loser posting twice in a weekend, but who am i kiddin I am one. not. ish. My saturday night was wack too. Went to a party, got 2 cups ; keg was tapped. Peaced on my friends with other friends I met at the party to go hang out with maryjane. But like the dumbasses we are, the 3 of us decided to roll right on campus. Cops came, my friend got arrested. I felt bad me and this other girl just got to leave. It was stupid, apparently my friends alright. Then I met up with my other friends from the original party, they peaced said it was lame. I went over to m's afterwards but that was wack too. I ended up going home pretty sober, only to wake up today so I can study for 2 tests. This weekend gets a 3/10. I'll give it some points for the attempt on my part to have fun, but mostly it was just a downer. I rate my weekends by 4 catagories. I know this is worst weekend to go into this but I have along day of hw to do.

Crunkness: 3/10
fun: 1/10
Atmosphere: 4/10
Extras:4/10
Shenigans: 4/10

Extras really just includes people I meet, randoms things that happens. misc things. Shenigans is well, drunk shenigans.

homework on a saturday.

I got my fake taken yesteday. it ruined my friday I was in a terrible mood. didn;t really drink peaced out at 11:30. Depressing. I think I'm ready to party again tonight.. I did my mourning yesterday, what pisses my off is now I have to depend on other people to get stuff, and I'm just going to think about how I used to not to. Not to mention things arent going well with my friends really. Now I have a shit ton of work to do tonight, and alot more studying to do tomorrow.

Is it sad the most exciting part of my week is my classes

I've just accepted the fact that I can't fall asleep until 2am now. It's not my fault, I wake up at 10am everyday(excluding weekends)and I try to fall asleep by 1 but I cant. Usually I end up getting into bed at 12am flat, and literally I just lay there until 2 sometimes 3. I don't know if thats insomnia but I legit cant cant sleep. I'll probably look up some tylenol pm later. It's been a slow week, two days has felt like forever. Monday I have 5 classes though. Tomorrow I only have 4, Friday 3. It keeps getting better. What really sucks is my 1 tuesday thursday class. It shits on my whole schedule. On the good side I feel like I finally get my Oceanography class, right at the last possible second where I still have time to turn everything around. Theres still Like 2 weeks before our first exam. I don't know why but I feel like I have no excuse to get nothing but great grades. I mean last year I was party'd out atleast 2 nights a week, always if not more. Some weeks I was trashed all 7 days. And now all my partying is exclusively on week days. Even with this feeling my goal is still above a 3.6, which would be a 3.7 an exact tie with my first semester of last year. Anyway I've babbled about this shit too long. Tomorrows wednesday, another chance for success

Learned Doctors

So the weekend came and life was good again. I had alot of fun but dealt with alot of house owning douchebags. Friday night is really a blur. Not much happened, chilled at a friends place drank some shat. Saturday I went to our game, legit ownage we won 49 to 17, jump to 2-0. The Game was mad fun, first one I've been to. Saturday night, hit up this place, the party was bouncing but the people at the door were straight ignant shits. It's all good I had fun and didnt pay 5 bucks either, and still drank their shitty ass beer. Oh yeaa. After that walked with a shit ton of people to another party that was busted, but we set up shop made jungle juice and got maddd shwasted. I'd give this weekend a Reasonable 8.5/10: a good solid weekend with some oh snap moments, but dragged down by house owning douches. Anyway so i'm sort of a mini celebrity now. You should be my fan its to the Right.

It's called hot and heavy?

how the hell did this happen. I couldn't write earlier, but now I think I can. You know what I hate, you can be the world's best soldier ever, and still die from the worlds worst soldier by a via gun. I could (never will) write an award winning novel right here, and no one would know. I haven't had a good day today but it's not the kind of bad day I can really write about. I like to think of myself as a confident person, but not every situation can really have a confident spin on it. Everything is always better in hindsight, but why is that. Why do people set unreasonable expectations from the past on their present. I know this is about me, I can blame other people for things, but if I enjoy or do not enjoy my life that is all me. I don't know where to go from here. I feel like I improve in one area of my life and then realize I need work somewhere else where I thought things were going well. Anyway I long for the old days with my pet paanda, and his toad friend.

being hungry sucks

Good weekend. enough said. I was mad rucked up. Our school had it's first football game in 69 years. People were tailgating everything was crazy. I passed out mad early that night though. Probably because I started too early My friday night was a blur. Had labor day off today, got my shit done, gotta go to the bank tomorrow tho. Thats about all I can say though I'd give my weekend a 8/10 . Side note this has been entertaining me for the last couple days.

thirsty thursdays

George Lopez heals the pain. I never thought I'd be bored a week into college but I am. Not the same kind of bored I was during summer, more of a disappointed bored that everything is different now. My weekends SHOULD still be good. I guess I'll find out this one, if I can get 2 for 2 i'll feel pretty good. Classes are straight so far, met some people but nothing on the serious side yet. Thinking about joining a club this year. I need an extracirricular if i decide to transfer to virginia. It depends if I get above a 3.6 this semester. I try not to get to personal but yeah things need to change alittle. I think i might need less piece of shit friends.

lame titles and status updates

First day of classes today, only 1 class tomorrow. Things went pretty well with some ironic and awkward moments involving seeing people whom I embarrassed my self much with while drunk. Still though I feel like i can succeed this semester. All A's are definitely a possibility so far (excluding my comm class tomorrow which i will find out about). I met probably 3 new people today. Not bad. I've been thinking of some rules for meeting new people

1. Don't be stuupid
-pretty self explanatory not to be a dumbass
2. keep it short and confident
-depressing life stories don't make friends
3. take advantage of opportunities
- there are tons of chances to start conversations. I think once you learn to just do it, the more opportunities you see.

I'm excited to see where this year goes. Things are on the up, you can never stop trying to make things better for yourself though.

smoke clowns like you on the bball court

My first weekend back, and it was good one. Being a sophomore is fun, but different. I'd rate this weekend a 8.4/10. Not exceptionally great, but full of good surprises and nostalgia. Whats good about college now is that my friends all have houses now, which makes finding a good party is alot easiar. Friday partied at a friends house, lots of free beer and good crowd. Cops showed up and busted the place after being there for probably an hour and a hhalf. Good time, the night crippled with an extra long walk across the boulevard. but plus'd with pizza at the end of the night. Saturday no hangover, and went to another friends of mine's house. The party was huge and I was severely gone by the end of the night. Saw almost all my friends and met some people. Sunday morning major hangover, but i probably deserved it ha. Good stuff, Living on campus a second year is nice but weird, as many of my friends now have houses. I'm hanging out with more of my secondary friends now bc they are the only ones on campus. Not really a bad thing but different.

Even Rocky Had A Montage

Going back to school tomorrow, Life turnaround can now begin..

What Am I fighting for

I've been wondering If I have a drinking problem lately. I dont drink everyday, but I probably drink more than I should. I've definitely stopped drinking as much as I used to, but I still do it when it's not needed. Tomorrow is wednesday, I leave Friday morning, still need to pack. I am on edge, anxious, everything. I want to be back where I belong and fastforward these last days. I am ready to go back, ready to see my friends, AND even ready to face that one person who I've spent my life searching for/Hiding from. I AM READY. I only ask that God does not bring it on too fast. I hope my DDR pad works tomorrow, it didnt today, and I needthat shit. I hate running, I cant do cardio without it, plus it takes me away from reality ha. thats all for today Payce

its the final Countdown ?

I leave on Friday to go back to school. This has been the longest summer, and most boring one I think I've ever had. Looking back I don't have much to say about it. One of my good friends isn't coming back to school this semester which sucks, but I'm not to worried. I'm more worried about my other friends that are coming back,they are not the most dependable. I am living on campus again so maybe I will make some new friends. I feel very ready to focus on school work again, I'm almost done with my Gen ed's, and I'm starting my minor/major. Right now my GPA is a 3.6 I'd like to see it go up some. I guess my main goal is to get above a 3.6 for this year, both semesters. Straight A's would be nice lol I wish I got good grades in Highschool, its a damn self esteem booster fo sho.

The Dullest moment of my life

Waiting on my boxers to finish washing so i can take a shower after playing DDR and working out. I have 12 days left, and I'm not even sure if which of my friends have left and which are still here, but I'm pretty sure I'm the last one after this weekend. I didnt even really say good bye to anyone. To be honest I don't really care to either. Ever since i my parents went out of town all I've really done is be anti social and workout in basement. I just have this idea in my head all I should be focusing on is going back to school and being ready to make friends. All i've really done tho is lose my beer belly. While it is nice not feel like a fatshit It'll just be back after my first semester haha. Anyways I'm ready to go back to my awesome fun party everynight and get amazing grades college life. And yes it really is exactly like that. :D

dig it

Yesterday was kind of another wake up call. Almost in a good way though, nothing bad happened but something could of happened which made me think. I've come along way, but I still need to drink more responsibly. I've done really well since my party actually, usually everything is fine I just need to stay away from my cellphone really. So far im on the upnup tho. I only have 2 more shifts at my job left, thank god, & one happens to be tonight. I havent told my mom that I'm working so little, hopefully she wont notice. What can I say, I'm done with summer and I'm practically just waiting for college to start again. Most my hs friends leave this weekend, so its gonna be a boring 2 last weeks. I'll be playing ddr alot probably. ha

You should always live your life as if you were looking back 6 months from now

I have not been doing that lately at all, and I regret it. I think about if I could redo lost years alot; not everyday, but probably atleast once a week. I think about how much more fun high school could of been, and I also think about how much fun my first year of college was. I feel like i've reached a dead end here. I sort of have nothing to say and I sort of have everything to say. I've been thinking about this summer and how its really sucked, I'm glad its almost over now. I wish I could say I've learned something from these months but I know I havent. Infact I've probably lost my way alot really. I know I've pissed off two girls who will not be talking to me for along time. I also feel like my hs friends are the most boring people ever; I know theres not much to do but we never do anything, atleast our senior year we went to the movies and sports games on weekends. Not to mention any prospects of myself meeting women were put on hold the minute I left my school for summer. Don't even get my started on my job and my fatshitabouttodiefromaheartattackbecauseofstress kitchen manager. The only thing nice has been my fake id which i stopped using because I kept doing stupid stuff while wasted. Damn I really miss college, and my friends, and fun. It's 2:21am I can't sleep and im feelin pessimistic

blah

I just finished working tonight, only to come home and be harassed by family over stupid bs. I'm so tired of living at home I cant imagine how long this last three weeks is going to be. Next year I'm definitely living off campus. Its not that I mind living on campus, the on campus apartments are really nice ( well mine is ) But I cannot deal with waiting til aug 28th.I know im just bitching and have an easy life and things could be worse, but things could be better and thats my point, why settle for less?

You know how they say we only use 10% of our brains, well I think we only use 10% of our hearts

So it's been a week since the god damn shit show. Good to say I've bounced back pretty well. Haven't had a drink in awhile, week ha. Anyway I feel fairly good about myself, lately I've spent most my time exercising, and playing DDR. Or mixing the two in an unholy Drexercising.

Thats about all I have to update, Im looking forward to : Quitting my job, and leaving for school again. Other than that I'm just trying to stay busy, and not fuck up again. Don't judge me.

You'll pay for this Captain Planet

So i'm picking up my parents today from the airport. This weekend has been an interesting experience that I hope I never have to repeat again. I also lost my camera, I think someone stole it but I'm not sure it was cheap anyway but the memory stick was not..I don't think I really learned anything, but some of priorities have been put back in place so that is good. It's funny I completely forgot I have work tomorrow too until someone texted me today about shifts. Anyway not to be so boring I will leave you with this: Random girl whose name escapes me and I will never run into again.

Been awhile

I decided I could use a place to write some useless stuff. Life Update; going to school, love it but home for the summer right now and hate it. My parents went out of town so i threw a party at my house. This was the first time I ever really had done something like that but it went pretty well. Everyone had a good time, my house wasn't trashed and I got sufficiently shitty. On the bad side tho alot of my friends bitched out, I only made 30 dollars back, I ended up calling my ex gf like a dumbass and my friend was pulled over and taken to jail, not that he should of been driving in the first place.

Basically it was a pretty good night I'd give it 84% out of 100. Yes it was specifically 84% good.
Right now i'm just kind of chillin til my parents come back. I dont think i'm throwin down again, too much pressure and stress. I think I might comeback to writing on this thing, its not like much else is going on in my life ha