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First day of classes today, only 1 class tomorrow. Things went pretty well with some ironic and awkward moments involving seeing people whom I embarrassed my self much with while drunk. Still though I feel like i can succeed this semester. All A's are definitely a possibility so far (excluding my comm class tomorrow which i will find out about). I met probably 3 new people today. Not bad. I've been thinking of some rules for meeting new people

1. Don't be stuupid
-pretty self explanatory not to be a dumbass
2. keep it short and confident
-depressing life stories don't make friends
3. take advantage of opportunities
- there are tons of chances to start conversations. I think once you learn to just do it, the more opportunities you see.

I'm excited to see where this year goes. Things are on the up, you can never stop trying to make things better for yourself though.

smoke clowns like you on the bball court

My first weekend back, and it was good one. Being a sophomore is fun, but different. I'd rate this weekend a 8.4/10. Not exceptionally great, but full of good surprises and nostalgia. Whats good about college now is that my friends all have houses now, which makes finding a good party is alot easiar. Friday partied at a friends house, lots of free beer and good crowd. Cops showed up and busted the place after being there for probably an hour and a hhalf. Good time, the night crippled with an extra long walk across the boulevard. but plus'd with pizza at the end of the night. Saturday no hangover, and went to another friends of mine's house. The party was huge and I was severely gone by the end of the night. Saw almost all my friends and met some people. Sunday morning major hangover, but i probably deserved it ha. Good stuff, Living on campus a second year is nice but weird, as many of my friends now have houses. I'm hanging out with more of my secondary friends now bc they are the only ones on campus. Not really a bad thing but different.

Even Rocky Had A Montage

Going back to school tomorrow, Life turnaround can now begin..

What Am I fighting for

I've been wondering If I have a drinking problem lately. I dont drink everyday, but I probably drink more than I should. I've definitely stopped drinking as much as I used to, but I still do it when it's not needed. Tomorrow is wednesday, I leave Friday morning, still need to pack. I am on edge, anxious, everything. I want to be back where I belong and fastforward these last days. I am ready to go back, ready to see my friends, AND even ready to face that one person who I've spent my life searching for/Hiding from. I AM READY. I only ask that God does not bring it on too fast. I hope my DDR pad works tomorrow, it didnt today, and I needthat shit. I hate running, I cant do cardio without it, plus it takes me away from reality ha. thats all for today Payce

its the final Countdown ?

I leave on Friday to go back to school. This has been the longest summer, and most boring one I think I've ever had. Looking back I don't have much to say about it. One of my good friends isn't coming back to school this semester which sucks, but I'm not to worried. I'm more worried about my other friends that are coming back,they are not the most dependable. I am living on campus again so maybe I will make some new friends. I feel very ready to focus on school work again, I'm almost done with my Gen ed's, and I'm starting my minor/major. Right now my GPA is a 3.6 I'd like to see it go up some. I guess my main goal is to get above a 3.6 for this year, both semesters. Straight A's would be nice lol I wish I got good grades in Highschool, its a damn self esteem booster fo sho.

The Dullest moment of my life

Waiting on my boxers to finish washing so i can take a shower after playing DDR and working out. I have 12 days left, and I'm not even sure if which of my friends have left and which are still here, but I'm pretty sure I'm the last one after this weekend. I didnt even really say good bye to anyone. To be honest I don't really care to either. Ever since i my parents went out of town all I've really done is be anti social and workout in basement. I just have this idea in my head all I should be focusing on is going back to school and being ready to make friends. All i've really done tho is lose my beer belly. While it is nice not feel like a fatshit It'll just be back after my first semester haha. Anyways I'm ready to go back to my awesome fun party everynight and get amazing grades college life. And yes it really is exactly like that. :D

dig it

Yesterday was kind of another wake up call. Almost in a good way though, nothing bad happened but something could of happened which made me think. I've come along way, but I still need to drink more responsibly. I've done really well since my party actually, usually everything is fine I just need to stay away from my cellphone really. So far im on the upnup tho. I only have 2 more shifts at my job left, thank god, & one happens to be tonight. I havent told my mom that I'm working so little, hopefully she wont notice. What can I say, I'm done with summer and I'm practically just waiting for college to start again. Most my hs friends leave this weekend, so its gonna be a boring 2 last weeks. I'll be playing ddr alot probably. ha

You should always live your life as if you were looking back 6 months from now

I have not been doing that lately at all, and I regret it. I think about if I could redo lost years alot; not everyday, but probably atleast once a week. I think about how much more fun high school could of been, and I also think about how much fun my first year of college was. I feel like i've reached a dead end here. I sort of have nothing to say and I sort of have everything to say. I've been thinking about this summer and how its really sucked, I'm glad its almost over now. I wish I could say I've learned something from these months but I know I havent. Infact I've probably lost my way alot really. I know I've pissed off two girls who will not be talking to me for along time. I also feel like my hs friends are the most boring people ever; I know theres not much to do but we never do anything, atleast our senior year we went to the movies and sports games on weekends. Not to mention any prospects of myself meeting women were put on hold the minute I left my school for summer. Don't even get my started on my job and my fatshitabouttodiefromaheartattackbecauseofstress kitchen manager. The only thing nice has been my fake id which i stopped using because I kept doing stupid stuff while wasted. Damn I really miss college, and my friends, and fun. It's 2:21am I can't sleep and im feelin pessimistic

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I just finished working tonight, only to come home and be harassed by family over stupid bs. I'm so tired of living at home I cant imagine how long this last three weeks is going to be. Next year I'm definitely living off campus. Its not that I mind living on campus, the on campus apartments are really nice ( well mine is ) But I cannot deal with waiting til aug 28th.I know im just bitching and have an easy life and things could be worse, but things could be better and thats my point, why settle for less?

You know how they say we only use 10% of our brains, well I think we only use 10% of our hearts

So it's been a week since the god damn shit show. Good to say I've bounced back pretty well. Haven't had a drink in awhile, week ha. Anyway I feel fairly good about myself, lately I've spent most my time exercising, and playing DDR. Or mixing the two in an unholy Drexercising.

Thats about all I have to update, Im looking forward to : Quitting my job, and leaving for school again. Other than that I'm just trying to stay busy, and not fuck up again. Don't judge me.